Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever get my life together. These days it seems like a losing battle. My mother keeps telling me that I don’t sound like I’m interested in my field of study and maybe I should change. I don’t know how to tell her that it’s not the field, it’s just that I don’t feel like I can accomplish anything. Is it because I’m scared that I’ll screw up? yeah, but it feels like more… I feel like I won’t be able to cut it when I get out to the “real” world, that I don’t have the drive to follow through… I don’t like being in the driver’s seat (except in my Peugeot 505) but that’s what life requires.