why is it that I can’t let go of my past? I try to be happy with my life now, but some problems just refuse to give up. sure, things are a lot better than they were a few years ago… yet I still feel utterly alone. the one event that managed to break through that feeling was all too brief and even though it’s over and done, I can’t shake the after effects. the mere sight of any couple is like a knife in my heart. does that make me weird? probably, and not in a good way.
my life feels like walking through the ocean along the shore. every day I have to persuade myself to keep moving when what I want is some company for the journey.
other people caused sorrow in my life, but in the end, I think it’s all my fault. yeah, I got teased when I was little. stupidly. all because of one little bad habit that I couldn’t break. and I wonder why…
my mind is frozen. my soul is weak. my heart is breaking. I am alone. there is no help.